Acest post este dedicat unei persoane care se pare că a murit.
Poezia îi aparţine.
When you touch my spirit, I think I could fly,
I end up believing things I’d never try,
You give me the wings that I lost along the way,
I will never forget the things you make me say.
Emotions, thoughts and feelings, you know mine by heart,
If I’d want to tell someone else, I wouldn’t know how to start;
But with you things are so easy, I just go with the flow
I feel like I’ve known you a thousand years ago …
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July 27th, 2009 at 6:33 PM
If I can’t show myself to you
Does it mean that I don’t care?
Or could it mean that I care too much to do it?
July 27th, 2009 at 8:00 PM
About what?
This part was hazy from the very beginning of the end.
July 27th, 2009 at 9:47 PM
Good question.
About you, about me…about being aware that I can’t ask what I can’t give, no matter how much I want it.
The idea is that because you can’t see or hear something it doesn’t mean it’s dead, or that it has forgot all about you.
July 27th, 2009 at 11:58 PM
I didn’t mean a literal death, obviously.
I also know that we did share some kind of bond, but it proved to be way too shallow.
July 28th, 2009 at 9:25 AM
Sad you feel that way.
I never thought you were all about appearances.
July 28th, 2009 at 9:33 AM
Suppose I don’t feel that way. Suppose I’m not (or know? knew?)
What difference does it make? You had your choices made for you, and that’s beyond my understanding.
Appearance or not, I would never give up my illusion of free will.
July 28th, 2009 at 11:48 AM
Don’t judge something you don’t understand…
July 28th, 2009 at 12:34 PM
You came here for an uncertain reason, and now, when I speak my mind, you back off and try to hide?
Why don’t you explain what I don’t understand and, also, how come you rise from the death after all this time? What made you break the silence vow once again?
July 28th, 2009 at 9:28 PM
There was never a vow of silence…not this time…
Why now? Probably because, despite the “shallowness” that you accuse me of, I still see the big Z. in you. So tell me who was the shallow one? Me or you? For me time hasn’t changed the way I see you and how I remember you. Can you say the same thing?
July 28th, 2009 at 9:38 PM
Yes, I can say that, and I can mean that… still, this doesn’t change a few facts (probably, from those that I don’t understand).
Also, yes, I received your smoke signal just now … twice.
July 29th, 2009 at 8:14 AM
What smoke signal?
July 29th, 2009 at 8:19 AM
Online, offline, bis.
July 29th, 2009 at 8:33 AM
Actually I wasn’t aware that you can see me
… but anyway.
Look… it’s obvious that you’re still mad and have issues with me. I don’t want to get into complicated things because it’s a waste of time even trying to explain myself to you. I just wanted you to know that you meant something for me, but we ended up wanting different things. It’s seems I’m not so good at friendships with blurry boundaries after all…
July 29th, 2009 at 8:40 AM
True, different things
I’m long past the mad or issues thingy. Sorry if you feel otherwise.
Also, I don’t understand what has our friendship got to do with it (another one that has to be explained). I never asked you for something I couldn’t give you, nor for something you couldn’t give me.
July 29th, 2009 at 8:50 AM
If I felt otherwise do you think I would be here? I don’t have any reason to be mad with you, BZ. From where I stand I can only say “thank you”
About our friendship… it has everything to do with it. You know as well as I do that it was slowly, but surely, turning into something else. Something undefined, unclear, trouble-making for sure. The only thing that I regret now is not keeping things friendly, and maybe now things would be completely different. I do miss you as a bf
July 29th, 2009 at 9:11 AM
Your regret is also my regret. Still, bf? As in what?
About our friendship, I don’t know what to say. Did I misbehave when we met? What did I do that made you feel pressured?
July 29th, 2009 at 6:29 PM
As in best friend.
And no, it’s not about what either of us did or said… it’s about what all of the facts taken together led to. This is not about blaming anyone, it’s just the consequence of an instinct. I wanted to know about you, how are you and how you’ve been. No reason, no plot, no hidden purposes, just a friendly “how you’ve been?” or a simple “hi”… that’s all… so loosen up
P.S. I don’t know why, but every time I learn something new about life, my thoughts seem to take me to you and I seem to want to share stuff with you.
P.S. 2 Don’t try to contact me in any way (pls).